Ok, we ALL battle with weight. We all kick ourselves for the extra 5,10,20...100 pounds we carry around. Why? Are we healthy? Are we suffering from co-morbid health issues?
If we are suffering from co-morbid health issues then, yeah we need to lose a few pounds. I have admittedly put on about 20 pounds from my lowest weight. I got sick, the only things that made me feel better were really unhealthy foods. I've been pretty mad at myself. I've been beating myself up. I've been thinking of myself as a failure. Why? For crying out loud, I lost 135 pounds (even if I put 20 back, I am still down 115 Pounds)! I HAD high blood pressure. I HAD irregular and painful menstural cycles. I COULD NOT walk up my stair with out my knees hurting. Hell, I COULD NOT walk up my stairs with out getting winded. I WAS pre-diabetic & I WAS on medication for it. That is all in the past. I NEEDED to lose weight.
I don't have any of those health issues anymore. I don't have 115 pounds (of almost pure fat) anymore.
What has the extra 20 pounds done to hurt me? I went from a size 6/8 to a 10/12... a s/m to a m/l. My belly sticks out a little bit. I feel bad about myself. I haven't had any of those health issues come back. But, eat because I feel bad about my weight. I've been fat shaming myeself! Fat shaming has been counter productive.
I'm still the same person with an extra 20 pounds. I'm not less healthy, but if I keep beating myself up I COULD end up sick again, I know this.
I came across this video today:
http://bodyimage.waywire.com/video/Fat-Shaming-Makes-You-Fatter
Watch it, really think about it, then come back. I will wait.
Did that video make anything clearer for you?
Let me tell you what it told me. I don't need to hate my little gut. I am NOT a number on a scale or the size of my dress. At the same time, I'm not going to lie to myself. I need to keep my weight in check and watch for signs that I'm unhealthy. I'm not going to lie to myself or not listen to my body.
If I'm healthy, I am ok. I'm better than ok, I'm amazing!
The point is, love yourself, no matter what size, YOU are amazing!
